Each time something different would happen, things would shift, and my mind would start communicating with me. It was scary. Talk about vulnerability on another level. I wasn’t able to run away from the past or my thoughts. And yet instead of running, sitting with the thoughts and trusting myself to allow those memories to release was easily the most therapeutic thing I’ve ever done. For the first 3-6 months, I think I just cried and let the tears fall during the entire 3- , 5-, or 15-minute meditation...but over time, evolution happened. Your stillness changes you! It changes everything you’ve known! It was finally possible to talk with myself. To finally say, "I see you, Sadie! I see you, and I know you have the courage to see yourself, to see that you have everything within you! Already! Right now. You can do this. You can fight." I pushed through my depression, anxiety, childhood memories, even my body dysmorphia disorder.
It’s possible, and important, and I promise if you put in the work (because meditation is some of the hardest mental work you will do), you will see your life begin to change.